Full term!

Thank you to you all for your support from my last post. I want to respond to you each individually and will be doing that in the coming days. I also plan to update on what things are like now at home but this post is purely Nacho related. Because I’m getting excited. I wanted to get some of it out.

I am now full term (how can that be?!) and on maternity leave after about three weeks of modified bedrest and working from home. Turns out my body was eager to get the show on the road. I had been showing all the signs of preterm labour. Too early. With my history of a weak cervix and not actually ever getting a stitch they didn’t want to take any chances so the advice was to stay off my feet until full term to see if they stopped. They did. With all the chaos going on I was doing too much, I see that now.

I last saw Nacho on Friday for his last scan. At the time he was over 6lbs of cuteness. Not much to see except squished baby parts but it is always a relief to hear he is healthy and normal.

Apart from developing anaemia and the prelabour craziness Nacho’s presence has been very reassuring. He’s kicking like a fiend, but sleeps when I sleep through the night which has been a blessing. His 3-4x a day hiccups are the cutest thing I could ever imagine, reminding me actually is a real baby in there. I get very regular cervical twinges or “fanny daggers” as a friend has been referring to them reminding me things are definitely happening down there and at my last midwife appointment it was confirmed he’s engaged. He could come anytime.

I’m not really ready mentally but I am getting there physically. Ordered what he needs day one, with a few things left to sort out. Ticking things off the list has been more cathartic than I thought. I practice hypnobirthing everyday. I see my doula regularly and she has been a lifesaver to help me through the anxiety. She’s got the perfect blend of medical (as an ex supervisor midwife) and mind-body knowledge (as a hypnotherapist) to make me feel like I’m in a very safe and comforting pair of hands.

I reluctantly went to a series of NCT antenatal classes which quickly became invaluable for the shared knowledge, relationships and advice. I feel like I have a handle on things now. I’m getting there anyway.

Nacho is a constant source of strength for me, and I can’t wait to be there for him. But until then I look forward to spending the coming days/weeks savouring how close we are to each other. I talk to him constantly, narrating our daily adventures, taking naps together, enjoying the sunshine and warm weather. Washing his clothes even fills my eyes with tears. Everything is so emotional right now. I just can’t wait to meet this little guy.

62 thoughts on “Full term!

  1. Yay! You’re so close now!! You’ve been on my mind a lot. Praying little Nacho holds out a little longer, but can’t wait for his big entrance too!

  2. This brought tears to my eyes. I hope you have a calm and swift labour – meeting your little man will be such an incredible moment! Miracles can happen. Thinking of you both xxx

  3. This blog made me cry! I am so happy for you! Thanks so much for sharing your journey with us all, your experiences are a source of inspiration and hope! Best of luck with the birth and can’t wait to hear the news of little Nacho being born!!! Yeaaa! πŸ™‚

  4. Wahoo! Full term, baby! So happy for you. πŸ˜€ Glad Nacho is getting ready to make his appearance, and glad that you’ve been excitedly readying for his arrival and bonding with him so well over the last few weeks. You’re going to be such an amazing mom. I cannot WAIT until he is here. So so happy for you, hun. ❀ ❀

  5. Goosebumps reading this! I’m holding my baby in my arms and I’m so excited for you. You’re going to be AMAZED at how you feel when you have him. Xxx ps I think we must have the same friends as I also got fanny daggers!

      • Ps you may also think oh Jesus I can’t cope but that’s normal too and it absolutely gets easier. I’m on a bus going to weigh in appt for Maeve both of us fed, cleanly dressed and on my own! (As in with the baby but just me!) this time last week I was in the bedroom in my milk soaked jammies crying!! So give yourself time and let a anyone who offers help!! Xxxx

  6. Just wanted to drop you a line to tell you I’m thinking of you. I hope Nacho is doing well! I hope you are well. I think about you and your husband sometimes, and I hope you are finding peace and support. It’s been such a long, hard wait for you, and I’m so happy that you’re going to be holding your baby in your arms soon.

    • Oh Eli I’ve been thinking of you so much. Thank you so much for checking in. There’s so much to write about and yet I find myself kind of sat in silence a lot of the time, frozen I think. Just want Nacho here now, I can hardly wait. xoxo

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