I miss you

It’s been nearly 7 months since my life changed for good, since the incredible being known to you all as Nacho has been with us. Words can’t really describe the overwhelming crazy lovejoy I feel for this little guy and how far I’ve come from the dark days. So many sad milestones have come and gone. Still sad but somehow clearer now.

I wanted to reach out because I miss you all, the amazing community of sisters and brothers who have been so supportive of me, of each other, for so long. I think of you all often, keeping your hopes and dreams in my thoughts. I don’t think this blog will continue because I no longer feel the overwhelming urge to pour my feelings out into cyberspace but I do check in from time to time to see how you’re all doing. I’ll still be here though and wherever you are in your journey I’m thinking of you. xx


I owe so many of you a reply to my last post and I promise to do that but in the meantime we have managed to escape life for a few days in southern Spain. I never want to come back. It has been so blissful already, I can’t even remember what it was like to be at work, to be stressed. 

We have been sleeping in, relaxing by the pool, resting on the beach, napping in the shade, eating super delicious food, reading, listening to meditation tapes and feeling the reassuring twists and turns of Nachito inside. I am sure he has grown quite substantially since we have been here. Maybe it feels good to be free here. I have had a permanent smile on my face and tears in my eyes since we got here. I am just so bloody thankful for him every single moment. Holidays really do do wonders don’t they?

I was quite nervous flying because it had been instilled in me by a TCM a few years ago that flying could cause problems in pregnancy. But our high risk OB was confident as long as I continued to take my clexane and aspirin as I have been and didn’t fly over 3 hours which we didn’t. Nacho didn’t stop moving the whole flight, and instantly I felt more at ease. His ability to relax me totally blows my mind.

So for the next 5 days we are going to lap it up, soak up the sun and rest as much as possible. 

Next opportunity I will update this post with some pics! Hugs to you all xx

9 Effective Exit Strategies for Pregnancy Announcements

This is brilliant!

Honestly Infertile

It is never easy to prepare for a pregnancy announcement even when you are highly suspicious that it is coming.  It is even harder when you are completely blindsided by the friend that was “totally done” with having babies, an unwed cousin, or a workplace nemesis.  This article will help help you escape from that awful situation so that you can cry in solitude.

First, identify your safe cry place.  Your vehicle is usually a good idea but if that is not a possibility, a bathroom stall is okay if you can wail silently.  Other options might include a psychiatric ward of a hospital, a funeral service, or a feminine product aisle of your neighborhood Walmart.

Then, make a list of trigger words/phrases so that you can react swiftly.  These phrases may include but are not limited to:

I have been dying to tell you…
I have some big news…

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Mind Belly Connection Fertility and Wellness Summit: Starts Today!

Last year I listened to this so religiously. I highly recommend listening in.

Just Another Infertility Blog

If you’ve been reading this blog for a while, you know I love me some internet based conferences. Today marks the start of the Mind Belly Connection Fertility and Wellness Summit.  Starting today through Friday there are live calls and recorded replays available for free.  I love these things because I always learn something new or at least get reminded about something that I’ve not been thinking about.

If you’re looking for anything you can proactively do to feel like you have some control over this whole IF treatment process I encourage you to listen in and see what these “experts” have to say.  I know I will be…


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“tired of being sensitive to my infertile friend”

This is a really important post. What’s also important is to out the ignorant who wrote the hateful “infatility” comment. I’m seeing/hearing of way too many hurtful ignorant comments being posted on the blogs of my friends and it angers and sickens me to no end.

Forever Infertile

This was an actual search that brought someone to my blog. Sadly, it wasn’t the only one along that theme. It makes my blood boil! Oh, boo hoo, you’re tired of exercising sensitivity toward your friend? Your friend? Well, let me tell you some things your friend is probably tired of:

  • She’s tired of hoping and praying, month after month, that this month will be, by some miracle, THEMONTH.
  • She’s tired of her body letting her down, month after month.
  • She’s tired of feeling broken.
  • She’s tired of crying herself to sleep.
  • She’s tired of invasive and painful tests.
  • She’s tired of medications that make her ovaries work overtime and take her on an emotional roller coaster ride, month after month (not to mention all the fun side effects, like nausea, fatigue, sleeplessness, hot flashes, night sweats, and headaches)
  • She’s tired of watching her savings account being drained…

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